Twenty one one!

I just realized, my last post was my first of the new year! Needless to say, my top of the list resolution, THAT IS, procrastination, is one never to be fulfilled, so I refuse to write down any other resolutions until I can cross it off the list. The odds that it will happen? Not good. The fact that I can't resolve to do anything else until I learn not to procrastinate is kind of ok because I wouldn't even get to anything else on the list until I can get rid of numero uno, and then, somewhere inside I know one tiny reason that list isn't coming out is because I'm procrastinating and not writing it. The writing part is easy. It's the thinking I'm trying to save my brain from.
Conservation of what, may I ask?

All I want is an extra cheesy pizza, total fatness, movie on a comfortable couch, and yeah. That. Too much to ask for? You'd think I'd have been asking for something like...yeah. But really, seriously, all I want is....

=)

Sufficiently annoying I would say. You know what, I think I'm going to make out that list after all. February 6th resolutions, here I come!

drag

Procrastination has become embedded inside me, engraved on every fiber of every muscle.
Pulling it out could be a nasty business, but then are so many other businesses. Nasty. Nasty jobs are usually VERY satisfying once they have been fully accomplished. Hence, I shall proceed straight to the nasty. No more procrastinat-blah-ing. I'll get right on it - once I've finished writing the rest of what must be written. Written NOW.
Haha.
Lame.
Thank you *bows*

These fluctuations I do not understand sometimes. Why do they come? And what do they mean? Sometimes I think it's because I am not at peace, and my being is in too much turmoil, and once I achieve that peace of mind that my body seems to be revolting for, they will disappear.
I cannot fight against them all the time - mainly because I am not a fighter, and I tire quickly. It is so much easier for me to give in to my demons than to grapple with them. Is it possible to become a fighter or do you have to be born one? I was not born one.

If only I could emulate these feelings of goodwill from myself all of the time, not just like now, and then, and then, and a bit more. Consistency, but in a positive way.